My
Home as a Temple
by Kristine
Manwaring
Is there something sacred in the everyday?
I have spent
too much time in my home discouraged.
I want to rear my children in a celestial
atmosphere. "With all my heart I believe that the best place to
prepare for eternal life is in the home," said David O. McKay1,
and his words resonate to the core of my being. Yet, believing
something does not automatically make it happen. In the abstract,
I love my family, I love my home, and I wouldn't want to be anywhere
else. In the reality of three meals a day, soccer games, dirty
laundry, reports on Spain, and strep throat, the connection between
eternal life and daily life often escapes me.
"Only the home can compare with the temple
in sacredness," the LDS Bible Dictionary tells me.
When I think of "sacred" I think of temples.
I picture white couches, hushed voices, crystal chandeliers, and
uninterrupted worship. I cannot recall ever leaving the temple
wishing I hadn't been there or begrudging the time I spent serving
our ancestors. It seems everything in the temple runs according
to plan and that everything I do there is part of a larger, meaningful
whole. Homes, on the other hand, are noisy, messy, often disorganized,
and characterized by nothing but interruptions. The demands during
a single day are relentless, and it is not uncommon for both mother
and father to feel used or spent. Even in the quiet moments, I
usually find myself cooking, folding laundry, giving spelling
quizzes, and playing Legos. These activities do not feel sacred
to me, and, if the truth be told, I'd rather not be doing them
so much of the time. What possible definition of the word "sacred"
could apply to these two seemingly opposite experiences?
When I was first presented with the idea
that homes should be sacred, I tried to make my home fit the kind
of cleanliness and order I thought the temple represented. Instead
of a temple-like home, I ended up with a growing resentment towards
the very things that homes exist for. Cooking and laundry became
onerous because the tasks themselves created disorder. I even
developed an intolerance for the cheerful chaos that burst through
the back door with my children as the school bus pulled away.
I became confused. Is my home still sacred when it is messy? What
about when it is loud? What if I have children or friends who
do not want to be reverent? Do they still get to come into my
home? The harder I pushed my family to fit my narrow definition
of "sacred," the more anxious and less temple-like we all felt.
Then I began walking in the mornings
with a wise neighbor who grew up in a large, loving family and
first became a mother at the age of forty-four. From her long
perspective as a daughter and her more recent experience as a
mother, she has come to believe that the work of feeding, clothing,
and nurturing one another is every bit as spiritual as it is physical.
She feels strongly that when ordinary, life-sustaining tasks are
done together as a family, they bind family members to one another
in small but critical ways. She speaks of chopping vegetables
and cleaning bathrooms with her sons with something akin to reverence.
She has even said that scrubbing a wall with a child is a more
productive "togetherness" experience than attending his ball game
or vacationing as a family.
I was startled to realize that she saw
as "sacred" the very tasks that I always thought were obstacles
to sacredness. And for evidence, she turned to the scriptures.
The parable of the sheep and the goats found in Matthew 25 clearly
shows that Christ will judge us according to our willingness to
feed and clothe "the least of these my brethren." Does this include
members of our own families? In fact, Christ used imagery of feeding
and washing and cleaning throughout His parables and object lessons.
"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd" (Isaiah 40:11). He will
"wash away the filth of the daughters of Zion" (2 Nephi 14:4)
and "sweep away the bad out of [His] vineyard" (Jacob 5:66). He
even likens Himself to a hen who "gathereth her chickens under
her wings" (Matthew 23:37).
Even more striking to me, Christ not
only spoke of these things, He personally did them. He fed multitudes
with limited tangible resources in a miraculous example of His
attention to our physical as well as spiritual hunger. He washed
the feet of His disciples to illustrate the humble service required
of a Master, and to reveal what He was willing to do that we might
be entirely clean. In the book of Moses, He states that He, Himself,
made the coats of skins to clothe Adam and Eve. When seen in this
new light, my perception of tasks like peeling potatoes and scrubbing
floors began to turn upside down and inside out. It was becoming
obvious to me that when we care for the physical as well as the
spiritual needs of our families, we are patterning our lives after
the Savior.
One morning my friend commented about
the struggle mothers face cleaning with children. She worried
that if mothers think they have to maintain temple-like standards
of cleanliness, they will focus on the cleaning itself and miss
out on the wonderful opportunity to work side by side with their
children. "Are we doing a disservice to mothers if we hold out
the temple as a standard for them to emulate?" she asked. Her
question touched a raw nerve. It brought back painful memories
of my own attempts to make my home like a temple, and I wanted
to object. I went home and looked up the exact wording of the
"temple" entry in the Bible Dictionary. There it was again: "Only
the home can compare with the temple in sacredness." There was
no hint that we should try to make our homes sacred like
the temple. The sacredness is somehow already there.
For the rest of the day, parallels between
my routines at home and those at the temple flooded my mind. In
the temple, for instance, we worship as a group. The pace for
the entire group is set by the slowest member. I thought of how
family scripture reading or dressing for church or even passing
the food at dinner is almost always determined by our two-year-old.
In temple ceremonies what we do with our hands is just as important
as what we say with our lips. Certainly I show my love for my
family with both my hands and my lips during the rituals of homemaking.
I vocally tell my children I love them, but an understanding of
the depth of my love comes when my hands clean up their vomit
or gently scrub their backs or hang on to the seats of their bicycles
or hold their hands as we cross the street. I even thought about
what it is we are taught at the temple. In both settings we learn
of our true identity and our connections and obligations to one
another. Boyd K. Packer stated in the October 1998 Conference,
"[M]ost of what I know about how our Father in Heaven really feels
about us, His children, I have learned from the way I feel about
my wife and my children and their children. This I have learned
at home."2
Michael Wilcox, in his book House
of Glory, states that, "As we pray for understanding, we can
be assured that everything in the temple is beautiful...The temptation
to reject a symbol as unedifying says much more about our ignorance
of its meaning than about the symbol itself. If we understood
it, it would be beautiful and powerful." As I have prayed for
an understanding and testimony of the sacredness of my home, I
have learned to apply this same principle to the ceremonies of
making a home. Only when I cease to feel "above" mundane tasks
like taking out the garbage or sweeping the kitchen floor do I
glimpse their symbolic and sacred nature. As I clean windows,
for instance, I notice the sunlight shining through more clearly,
affirming that Jesus Christ is the source of all light. When I
choose to spend a particular moment serving my family in this
way over the many other possibilities, I remember that Mosiah
taught that "when [we] are in the service of [our] fellow beings"
we are also in the service of our God (Mosiah 2:17).
I learn even more when I share these
tasks with my children. One Saturday morning my nine-year-old
daughter and I were cleaning our large kitchen window together.
I was outside and she was inside. We both sprayed the entire window
with cleaner and when I looked at the window, I couldn't see her
at all. Gradually, as we both wiped away the spray, her image
became clearer until, with both the dirt and the spray gone, I
could see her with perfect clarity. Our relationship is sometimes
stormy, and the incident reminded me of my need to constantly
keep wiping away surface tensions, judgmental thoughts, and misunderstandings
whenever her true identity and potential are temporarily clouded
from my vision.
On the days I don't really feel like laboring
for and with my family, my reluctance itself teaches me about
my relationship with my Heavenly Father, His son Jesus Christ,
and my own progress toward them. How much greater their love for
us must be than what I am capable of, for they never tire of listening
to our prayers nor are they inconvenienced by our constant need
for their help.
Realizing something of the spiritual
value of homemaking has made me more aware of the need to more
fully involve my family in these tasks. My husband and I no longer
simply delegate chores to our children each day. We wash dishes
and make beds alongside them. By doing so, we have been blessed
with opportunities to teach our children and be taught ourselves
with a frequency and a depth we previously never imagined. A year
ago, I spent most of my dishwashing time muttering under my breath
and trying to jam too many dishes into the limited dishwasher
space. Now, every time I invite a child to thrust their hands
into the warm, soapy water with mine, I learn something new about
their spirit and their life. It is only when doing dishes together
that my twelve-year-old son, who mostly speaks in monosyllables
about his experiences at school, reveals who his friends are and
why he has chosen them, the pressure he feels about his grades,
how much he likes math, and what he thinks about his teacher.
Paradoxically, what I previously labeled
"mindless" and once thought of as interruptions to spiritual growth
are becoming the core of what makes my home feel sacred. As I
cook meals, wash dishes, make beds, and sweep floors, I am continually
in the midst of both teaching and being taught about charity,
humility, hope, and faith. I am exchanging independence and "everyone
seeking after their own" for a mutual dependence and unity in
purpose that surely is related to Zion. I feel the sacredness
in my home not only when it is clean, but also when we are in
the process of getting it that way. Some days I don't even mind
that we will go through the process again the very next day.
Much of my discouragement at home was
due to a sense of failure I felt for not being able to artificially
create sacredness there. How comforting it is to be released from
that burden. With joy and gratitude I now realize I need only
look for the way sacredness already surrounds me.
Notes
1. McKay, David O., "Blueprint for Family Living," Improvement Era, April 1963, p. 252.
2. Boyd K. Packer, "Parents in Zion", Ensign, November 1998, p. 24.
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